tonight's final thought (maybe)

"To summarize the summary of the summary: People are a problem."
     --Douglas Adams, The Restaurant at the End of the Universe

I think I am going to sink into the obscurity of Infocom games now.

tonight's final thought (maybe)

"To summarize the summary of the summary: People are a problem."
     --Douglas Adams, The Restaurant at the End of the Universe

I think I am going to sink into the obscurity of Infocom games now.

nope, I lied. maybe I should just turn off the damn computer. (but typing is so much easier than try

Don't want to compartmentalize myself, but not everyone needs to always see everything. Difference between purposely concealing and simply choosing not to reveal where not seen to be relevant. After all, I am not "out" at work, in several ways; it is not needed. I've wanted to consider online as a place where I wouldn't want to do this, but then that just creates the same type of compartmentalization, only between "work/home" and "not-work/home", in other words "in here" and "out there", which is perhaps worse in that it is more absolute, rather than considering that both online and off, there are places for some things and other places for others.

Summary: It is not somehow dishonest, nor doing myself a disservice, to act differently in different situations and ask to be called by different names, so long as I don't try to conceal that they are both me (and why should I want to, since I want them to be synthesized in my own head).

nope, I lied. maybe I should just turn off the damn computer. (but typing is so much easier than try

Don't want to compartmentalize myself, but not everyone needs to always see everything. Difference between purposely concealing and simply choosing not to reveal where not seen to be relevant. After all, I am not "out" at work, in several ways; it is not needed. I've wanted to consider online as a place where I wouldn't want to do this, but then that just creates the same type of compartmentalization, only between "work/home" and "not-work/home", in other words "in here" and "out there", which is perhaps worse in that it is more absolute, rather than considering that both online and off, there are places for some things and other places for others.

Summary: It is not somehow dishonest, nor doing myself a disservice, to act differently in different situations and ask to be called by different names, so long as I don't try to conceal that they are both me (and why should I want to, since I want them to be synthesized in my own head).

*looks about for nearby brick wall*

Good grief, I never thought... Where's the shame in simply making up a name that I just think sounds cool, so long as I honestly give that as the reason if I'm asked? I do want it to describe me somehow, but why does it have to perfectly encapsulate my being? I think I have been taking this way too seriously, and letting idealism get in the way of practicality. Except for that core vibrational resonance that no one with a human windpipe could pronounce anyway, a name is just something for people to call you besides "Hey you!"

While I don't think the following phrase applies in all situations (I agree with those who feel net mockery is able to cause real hurts), I think it certainly does here, to me: "Get a life. It's just the goddamn internet."

The foregoing thoughts have almost certainly been influenced by reading postvixen's writings on fluorescence, identity-play, and the like. (I am 68% fluorescent! *giggles*)

This all said, I do offer you the following quote from Hubert H. Humphrey: "In real life, unlike in Shakespeare, the sweetness of the rose depends upon the name it bears. Things are not only what they are. They are, in very important respects, what they seem to be."

*looks about for nearby brick wall*

Good grief, I never thought... Where's the shame in simply making up a name that I just think sounds cool, so long as I honestly give that as the reason if I'm asked? I do want it to describe me somehow, but why does it have to perfectly encapsulate my being? I think I have been taking this way too seriously, and letting idealism get in the way of practicality. Except for that core vibrational resonance that no one with a human windpipe could pronounce anyway, a name is just something for people to call you besides "Hey you!"

While I don't think the following phrase applies in all situations (I agree with those who feel net mockery is able to cause real hurts), I think it certainly does here, to me: "Get a life. It's just the goddamn internet."

The foregoing thoughts have almost certainly been influenced by reading postvixen's writings on fluorescence, identity-play, and the like. (I am 68% fluorescent! *giggles*)

This all said, I do offer you the following quote from Hubert H. Humphrey: "In real life, unlike in Shakespeare, the sweetness of the rose depends upon the name it bears. Things are not only what they are. They are, in very important respects, what they seem to be."

(no subject)

Some people do the same thing every day, endlessly (like some Buddhists I know) which ultimately offers little in the way of transformation - judging by their personalities - and only serves to fossilize belief well and truly; they end up feeling certain that their path is THE PATH and brook no argument about it. Other people love to do a big exciting knees-up ritual a few times a year, and don't pay much attention to their magic in between (there are plenty of Wiccans like this, I've met them too). So to answer the point you raise, in short: I believe that the belief that transformation only occurs within the context of ritual or sacred activity always leads to "religion" [is] a terrible disease which sorcerers could usefully avoid! I think that [the Azoetia] puts the case very well for a total integration of ritual, dreaming by day and night, creative activity, inspired thinking, sexual activity, and so on - all the best things in life in fact! - and that the sorcerer should turn everything towards his or her Path. Transformation is happening at every moment, whether we want it or not - the point is to encourage changes to go in the directions we want them to go.

(Francis Blackman)

(no subject)

Some people do the same thing every day, endlessly (like some Buddhists I know) which ultimately offers little in the way of transformation - judging by their personalities - and only serves to fossilize belief well and truly; they end up feeling certain that their path is THE PATH and brook no argument about it. Other people love to do a big exciting knees-up ritual a few times a year, and don't pay much attention to their magic in between (there are plenty of Wiccans like this, I've met them too). So to answer the point you raise, in short: I believe that the belief that transformation only occurs within the context of ritual or sacred activity always leads to "religion" [is] a terrible disease which sorcerers could usefully avoid! I think that [the Azoetia] puts the case very well for a total integration of ritual, dreaming by day and night, creative activity, inspired thinking, sexual activity, and so on - all the best things in life in fact! - and that the sorcerer should turn everything towards his or her Path. Transformation is happening at every moment, whether we want it or not - the point is to encourage changes to go in the directions we want them to go.

(Francis Blackman)

(no subject)

paper_goldfish posted some ideas about autumn in glamourbombs and it reminded me... I had a dream about tons of fallen leaves of all colours this morning (my most vivid dreams always come after sunrise - I seem to recall that there's a physiological reason for this; does anyone know what it is?)... lots of bright and lemony yellow ginkgos, maples of gold shading into red and red all over, brown poplars (? I dunno what kind of trees the ones I'm thinking of actually are)... I think spread all over green grass.. I seem to recall being in among them, and them falling down on me from nowhere in particular.

(no subject)

paper_goldfish posted some ideas about autumn in glamourbombs and it reminded me... I had a dream about tons of fallen leaves of all colours this morning (my most vivid dreams always come after sunrise - I seem to recall that there's a physiological reason for this; does anyone know what it is?)... lots of bright and lemony yellow ginkgos, maples of gold shading into red and red all over, brown poplars (? I dunno what kind of trees the ones I'm thinking of actually are)... I think spread all over green grass.. I seem to recall being in among them, and them falling down on me from nowhere in particular.

(no subject)

Looking back to last night, I was saying some personally semi-revelatory stuff about names and identity and how I didn't have to be the exact same person everywhere and this was not deceitful so long as I didn't try to hide it (and I wouldn't want to). When I was lying in bed going to sleep I was going over possible names and things, trying to think about what ones I had gravitated strongly to in the past for whatever reason, but had eventually been discarded under the "not entirely accurate" kind of reasoning that I am now trying itself to discard. I'm starting to think that the primary criterion is "sounds cool", because that gets you cred everywhere, heh, rather than a "topic-specific" kind of name. Basically I'm trying to think of "what was that cool name you always wanted to have but didn't think you fit, or you thought was too silly?" but nothing is really coming to mind.

(no subject)

Looking back to last night, I was saying some personally semi-revelatory stuff about names and identity and how I didn't have to be the exact same person everywhere and this was not deceitful so long as I didn't try to hide it (and I wouldn't want to). When I was lying in bed going to sleep I was going over possible names and things, trying to think about what ones I had gravitated strongly to in the past for whatever reason, but had eventually been discarded under the "not entirely accurate" kind of reasoning that I am now trying itself to discard. I'm starting to think that the primary criterion is "sounds cool", because that gets you cred everywhere, heh, rather than a "topic-specific" kind of name. Basically I'm trying to think of "what was that cool name you always wanted to have but didn't think you fit, or you thought was too silly?" but nothing is really coming to mind.

aaaaaah the pain!

Spotted on rec.arts.tv.mst3k.misc:

> 2. Define Existential Nihilism as it applies to modern dairy farming.
> (be brief).

Kant be done, it's a mooooot point.

aaaaaah the pain!

Spotted on rec.arts.tv.mst3k.misc:

> 2. Define Existential Nihilism as it applies to modern dairy farming.
> (be brief).

Kant be done, it's a mooooot point.