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I'm unwell.
Partly this is lingering unwellness from the too much alcohol on Saturday night, which besides being sick (I might have made it if![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
unworshipediety hadn't disturbed my stomach, but we'll never know) meant that I didn't sleep well that night, spent most of yesterday convalescing, and because Space Ghost is now on at 1:45 and I stayed up until 2:30 to watch Family Guy because I had missed it at 11:00, I didn't get enough sleep last night either.
But besides all that, there is just a sort of general malaise. I don't like being cooped up in this room. I want to be out somewhere, perhaps hiking (although it may be a little warm for that later today). Somewhere with air and physical activity. Or failing that, a bookstore in a nice bustling-yet-quaint downtown, perhaps. My actual useful work today is going to be about twenty minutes' worth, and then I have a somewhat less useful meeting to attend for 45 minutes to an hour. But I still have to be here the remaining 7-8 hours whether I need it or not, whether they need it or not, because that's how "contract hours" works.
Ugh. I've said for most of my life (at least in the time that I've thought about work) that I would be fine doing the same thing every day, but I'm starting to think that isn't really true. It's not that I want Excitement and Adventure and Really Wild Things, but I like to have a sense of steady movement, or something. I would have said "progression", but it's more like I like having something to point to and say "I did that!" (even if it's not much to look at). It doesn't need to "progress" as much as it needs to "build up", heheh.
My old position drove me even crazier in this regard because it was even more ephemeral - just dealing with angry people most of the time. So I made signs and forms and a manual for student-level procedures and one for supervisory ones and a separate one for video processing and yadda yadda. There's actually less to need to know how to handle in this position, so there's less to write about, but one of the first things I did was, you guessed it, write the manual (although it was also for my own reference).
So I am not really sure what kind of thing I am thinking of, here, especially if I also want it to coincide with my "produce no waste, or be involved in reducing waste" and "physical activity" criteria. Really what I need to do is get enough interest income not to have to work at all, and then I can spend my day doing stuff that I actually feel is important. :P (I was reading something the other day about how a lot of people would apparently keep working a regular job because they just don't know what else to do with themselves, and apparently my dad falls into this category because he has been going pretty stir-crazy since being laid off in February, but I think I would have plenty to do in the magical arena, at least.)
Partly this is lingering unwellness from the too much alcohol on Saturday night, which besides being sick (I might have made it if
unworshipediety hadn't disturbed my stomach, but we'll never know) meant that I didn't sleep well that night, spent most of yesterday convalescing, and because Space Ghost is now on at 1:45 and I stayed up until 2:30 to watch Family Guy because I had missed it at 11:00, I didn't get enough sleep last night either.But besides all that, there is just a sort of general malaise. I don't like being cooped up in this room. I want to be out somewhere, perhaps hiking (although it may be a little warm for that later today). Somewhere with air and physical activity. Or failing that, a bookstore in a nice bustling-yet-quaint downtown, perhaps. My actual useful work today is going to be about twenty minutes' worth, and then I have a somewhat less useful meeting to attend for 45 minutes to an hour. But I still have to be here the remaining 7-8 hours whether I need it or not, whether they need it or not, because that's how "contract hours" works.
Ugh. I've said for most of my life (at least in the time that I've thought about work) that I would be fine doing the same thing every day, but I'm starting to think that isn't really true. It's not that I want Excitement and Adventure and Really Wild Things, but I like to have a sense of steady movement, or something. I would have said "progression", but it's more like I like having something to point to and say "I did that!" (even if it's not much to look at). It doesn't need to "progress" as much as it needs to "build up", heheh.
My old position drove me even crazier in this regard because it was even more ephemeral - just dealing with angry people most of the time. So I made signs and forms and a manual for student-level procedures and one for supervisory ones and a separate one for video processing and yadda yadda. There's actually less to need to know how to handle in this position, so there's less to write about, but one of the first things I did was, you guessed it, write the manual (although it was also for my own reference).
So I am not really sure what kind of thing I am thinking of, here, especially if I also want it to coincide with my "produce no waste, or be involved in reducing waste" and "physical activity" criteria. Really what I need to do is get enough interest income not to have to work at all, and then I can spend my day doing stuff that I actually feel is important. :P (I was reading something the other day about how a lot of people would apparently keep working a regular job because they just don't know what else to do with themselves, and apparently my dad falls into this category because he has been going pretty stir-crazy since being laid off in February, but I think I would have plenty to do in the magical arena, at least.)
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Date: Jul. 25th, 2005 05:54 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: Jul. 25th, 2005 06:09 pm (UTC)From:I'd like to think that I wouldn't be like that but who knows? maybe I would.
It does seem like there are so many cool, adventurous and creative things to do that if you had the opportunity to not work, why wouldn't you take it?
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Date: Jul. 25th, 2005 06:54 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: Jul. 25th, 2005 07:58 pm (UTC)From:And that "build up" part of job satisfaction? Depending on the philosophy, I believe it's usually called impact or legacy. That tangible result, direct or indirect, of something you have done.
I'm all about legacy.