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Now that I have a SIN I'm deep in quandary about what to actually DO. Do I try to wait for that perfect job that combines being at least related to what I can actually do (rather that trying to say "uh, sure, I can do technical writing!" when my degree is totally off compass from that and I have no prior experience in it), being local, my salary requirements, not having to get up at godawful in the morning, and not absolutely hating what I do? Am I being stubborn and not "allowing" by insisting on a certain combination of characteristics? Should I give them up one by one and take whatever I can get that fulfills the rest (assuming anyone actually even wanted to hire me)? All the other jobs I've had in my life I walked into by a combination of luck (right place/right time) and knowing someone who was able to turn me on to them (what you know, who you know). Should I try to wait until that happens again? Or because I didn't follow ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
enotsola's advice and apply for the UoW cataloguing position despite not having a SIN (hoping to convince them that it would be here Real Soon Now), have I blown the chance I was given? Did I manage to "manifest" that and then not recognize that it was for me, or was the fact that it didn't occur at the right time a sign that it wasn't? Or have I got wrong ideas of "the right time"? Should I try for something in Toronto even though I really don't want to live there, but don't want to commute that far either? (I'd have no choice but to do so for a few months at least - hard to rent an apartment with no income and no rental history. I certainly can't move there first.) Was I, perhaps, even wrong to think I was supposed to leave the US in the first place? Am I being too hard on myself and feeling too pressured to find something immediately? Why did it seem so easy the other times and this time it's not? What am I supposed to be doing?
enotsola's advice and apply for the UoW cataloguing position despite not having a SIN (hoping to convince them that it would be here Real Soon Now), have I blown the chance I was given? Did I manage to "manifest" that and then not recognize that it was for me, or was the fact that it didn't occur at the right time a sign that it wasn't? Or have I got wrong ideas of "the right time"? Should I try for something in Toronto even though I really don't want to live there, but don't want to commute that far either? (I'd have no choice but to do so for a few months at least - hard to rent an apartment with no income and no rental history. I certainly can't move there first.) Was I, perhaps, even wrong to think I was supposed to leave the US in the first place? Am I being too hard on myself and feeling too pressured to find something immediately? Why did it seem so easy the other times and this time it's not? What am I supposed to be doing?