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enotsola... I was the only one talking here, so I just took out all the username: prefixes.
i keep having these dreams, though! i keep dreaming about either random non-existent boys, or a few of the ones i went to high school with (this morning was Matt York), in semi-sensual situations like clothed caresses and kissing. the odd thing is (or really, not that odd at all, but it's kind of odd to experience and think about when i wake up) they all ... react? like you do... like, have your mannerisms and motion? even though they're their own personalities, voices, whatever? but this is a seriously recurrent theme, both over long periods of time (i.e. years), and over the course of any given week... generally at least once. as far as i can recall, this sort of dream started occurring shortly after high school, so i imagine it's a buried, subconscious attempt to deal with my breakup with Aaron at its root...and something that has grown more complicated over the years, e.g., issues with not feeling attractive to anyone. so in these dreams, i'm practically irresistible, but just giving them tiny amounts of this wonderful stuff.
enotsola... I was the only one talking here, so I just took out all the username: prefixes.i keep having these dreams, though! i keep dreaming about either random non-existent boys, or a few of the ones i went to high school with (this morning was Matt York), in semi-sensual situations like clothed caresses and kissing. the odd thing is (or really, not that odd at all, but it's kind of odd to experience and think about when i wake up) they all ... react? like you do... like, have your mannerisms and motion? even though they're their own personalities, voices, whatever? but this is a seriously recurrent theme, both over long periods of time (i.e. years), and over the course of any given week... generally at least once. as far as i can recall, this sort of dream started occurring shortly after high school, so i imagine it's a buried, subconscious attempt to deal with my breakup with Aaron at its root...and something that has grown more complicated over the years, e.g., issues with not feeling attractive to anyone. so in these dreams, i'm practically irresistible, but just giving them tiny amounts of this wonderful stuff.