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fingertips lightly to brow
lifting strands of hair away
hand to cheek
i want to--
can't not--

your eyes first widen
     --disbelief
then close
     no -- i'll believe --
     i'll do anything
     to be allowed to believe this.

i pause, uncertain
drop my hand to yours
fingertips lightly to wrist
do you want to--
can you--

your eyes first widen
     --more, again, please
then close
     only your touch
     can make it true
     can give me faith.

(no subject)

fingertips lightly to brow
lifting strands of hair away
hand to cheek
i want to--
can't not--

your eyes first widen
     --disbelief
then close
     no -- i'll believe --
     i'll do anything
     to be allowed to believe this.

i pause, uncertain
drop my hand to yours
fingertips lightly to wrist
do you want to--
can you--

your eyes first widen
     --more, again, please
then close
     only your touch
     can make it true
     can give me faith.

(no subject)

I had "Snape vs. Snape" playing on repeat in my head for about two solid days after hearing it Wednesday. One of the perils of pop music, I suppose: it's extremely catchy. I woke up Friday morning and thought blissfully, it's finally gone! Of course, having this thought was the precise trigger that started it up again.

Friday afternoon I thought I heard "Walk Like an Egyptian" being played over a grocery store PA, and that worked to drive it out for a little while.

Yesterday I managed to use enough of my brain on other things (including the noble pursuit of lol macros) that it seems to have stopped, and thinking about the song doesn't seem to be bringing it back. In fact, I am momentarily unable to get a grip on the melody line, although that may be because I've only been conscious forty minutes.

But then I had the misfortune to hear my mother say "banana".

ring ring ring ring ring aaaaauuugghhhh!!!!

(no subject)

I had "Snape vs. Snape" playing on repeat in my head for about two solid days after hearing it Wednesday. One of the perils of pop music, I suppose: it's extremely catchy. I woke up Friday morning and thought blissfully, it's finally gone! Of course, having this thought was the precise trigger that started it up again.

Friday afternoon I thought I heard "Walk Like an Egyptian" being played over a grocery store PA, and that worked to drive it out for a little while.

Yesterday I managed to use enough of my brain on other things (including the noble pursuit of lol macros) that it seems to have stopped, and thinking about the song doesn't seem to be bringing it back. In fact, I am momentarily unable to get a grip on the melody line, although that may be because I've only been conscious forty minutes.

But then I had the misfortune to hear my mother say "banana".

ring ring ring ring ring aaaaauuugghhhh!!!!

thoughts on slashfic.

In a HP-filter post I remarked that I had some thoughts on why male/male fic is the most popular type (depending on your fandom, I suppose, but this seems to be the case in most I have glanced at), especially when it comes to smut.

So, given: That heterosexual females (like myself) are doing most of the writing and reading, then:

1. The same Oedipal reason hetero men often like lesbian porn: there is no participant of the same gender to be a threat.

2. Such females are generally familiar (or, I suppose, uncomfortable) with their vulvas and would rather hear about cocks plzkthxbai. (In a way I guess you could cast this as homophobia.)

3. (This one may just be me) In het fic there is an opportunity to plug oneself in which is not present when all there is is boys, and that's often a very uncomfortable idea. (Yes, in my case, even FC/Severus, which you would think I would have no trouble with, ha ha.) Male/male is more pure voyeurism -- safer, if you will, because it doesn't demand the same involvement.

Your thoughts?

thoughts on slashfic.

In a HP-filter post I remarked that I had some thoughts on why male/male fic is the most popular type (depending on your fandom, I suppose, but this seems to be the case in most I have glanced at), especially when it comes to smut.

So, given: That heterosexual females (like myself) are doing most of the writing and reading, then:

1. The same Oedipal reason hetero men often like lesbian porn: there is no participant of the same gender to be a threat.

2. Such females are generally familiar (or, I suppose, uncomfortable) with their vulvas and would rather hear about cocks plzkthxbai. (In a way I guess you could cast this as homophobia.)

3. (This one may just be me) In het fic there is an opportunity to plug oneself in which is not present when all there is is boys, and that's often a very uncomfortable idea. (Yes, in my case, even FC/Severus, which you would think I would have no trouble with, ha ha.) Male/male is more pure voyeurism -- safer, if you will, because it doesn't demand the same involvement.

Your thoughts?

my brain is contaminated.

My mother has watched The Last Samurai twice in two days. I've walked in on it in the same spot both times (like the way that whenever you catch by chance an episode of a TV show you never watch, it is always the same one). I can't describe where in the movie it is because I've never actually watched it, but --

The dude walking next to Tom Cruise is Peter Pettigrew. (Ya rly; I checked.)

The point is that amazing "WHAT" moment I had when I recognized the eyes and facial structure.

...

Once ingested, Harry Potter is a poison that spreads into every vein.

my brain is contaminated.

My mother has watched The Last Samurai twice in two days. I've walked in on it in the same spot both times (like the way that whenever you catch by chance an episode of a TV show you never watch, it is always the same one). I can't describe where in the movie it is because I've never actually watched it, but --

The dude walking next to Tom Cruise is Peter Pettigrew. (Ya rly; I checked.)

The point is that amazing "WHAT" moment I had when I recognized the eyes and facial structure.

...

Once ingested, Harry Potter is a poison that spreads into every vein.